“I nearly became someone else”

23 September 2026

“I nearly became someone else”

By Christophe Delvaux

Today, she runs a company with 120 employees, operating in four countries and recognised in its sector for the quality of its internal culture as much as for its performance. Six years ago, she came close to selling everything to a German group, accepting a gilded regional director role, and leaving behind what she had spent fifteen years building. Her name is Nathalie. She agreed to tell her story.

What we think we know about ourselves

Nathalie founded her technology services company in Geneva in 2007, at the age of 31, with a partner and a very clear idea of what she did not want to do. No artificial growth. No toxic debt. No clients taken on because there was nothing better. “I had spent five years in a large group where everyone was chasing targets that nobody really understood. I wanted to build something legible, a company where people know why they come in each morning.”

The first few years proved her right. The company grew slowly and deliberately. It hired unconventional profiles, valued the longevity of client relationships over multiplying contracts, and repeatedly turned down fast-growth opportunities that would have required raising capital and diluting her stake. Her partner eventually left; he wanted to accelerate, she wanted to hold her course. She bought out his shares without any apparent regret. “We did not have the same idea of success. It was better for everyone.”

At 42, she was running a profitable, stable organisation with 65 people, much appreciated by its clients. She believed she had grasped something many founders miss: that growth is not an end in itself, and that consistency is a strength. She was convinced she knew who she was and what she wanted. It was precisely at that moment that things began to unravel.

When the mirror cracks

The offer arrived in 2018 through a Zurich M&A advisory firm. A German industrial group in the midst of digital transformation was looking to acquire human-scale businesses across several European countries. It wanted teams, methods, culture. At the first lunch, its representative said it wanted “exactly what you have built.” The price was serious. The terms seemed respectful. And Nathalie, for the first time in a long while, began to calculate.

“I remember the exact moment I realised I was persuading myself. I was not making a decision; I was constructing a rationalisation. I was telling myself: my staff will be better protected inside a large group, I will have more resources to develop the projects I want to pursue, and in any case the sector is going to consolidate, so I might as well get ahead of it. Each argument was defensible. Together, they formed a story I was telling myself so I would not look at what I was really feeling.” What she was feeling, it took her several weeks to admit, was fear. Not fear of selling, but fear of what the sale would reveal: that she might have been less attached to her convictions than to the image she had built of herself through them. The German group was not explicitly asking her to give up her values. It was offering a framework in which they would gradually become optional. The distinction is crucial.

The turning point came during a due diligence meeting in Munich. The group’s representatives presented their integration plan: harmonising HR processes, aligning pay scales with group standards, monthly reporting to European management, and double-digit growth targets for the first three years. Nothing unusual for an acquisition of this kind. But as Nathalie listened, she mentally went through her team, the faces, the stories, the reasons each person had chosen to work with her rather than elsewhere. “I understood that this plan left no room for what made us different. Not out of malice, simply because difference is not scalable. It does not fit into a spreadsheet.” She returned to Geneva without signing. The next morning, she called her lawyer to stop the process.

What we become when we choose

The decision was not triumphant. It was followed by several difficult months marked by doubt, some internal tensions, two executives who had hoped for the sale for legitimate personal reasons, and a financial year that was weaker than expected. “There was no cinematic moment of relief. There was work, and the quiet conscience of having made the right choice for the right reasons. That is not the same as being happy.”

What changed, however, was deeper. Nathalie drew from the experience a clarity she had not had before. For the first time, she formalised the non-negotiable principles of her governance, not as a charter displayed in the corridors, but as an internal working document she shares with her executive committee and updates every year. She created an external advisory board made up of three people chosen for their ability to tell her what she does not want to hear. She decided never again to enter a sale or strategic partnership process without first asking the only question that truly matters: Do I still recognise my company in what this decision will produce in five years’ time?

Today, the company employs 120 people. It has opened three offices abroad, not under pressure from an investor, but because long-standing clients asked for it and the growth was funded without borrowing. The German group, for its part, resold two of the businesses it had acquired that year, after integration difficulties documented in the specialist press. Nathalie does not see that as revenge. She sees it as confirmation of what she understood the day she left Munich without signing: that the value of a company with a strong identity cannot simply be transferred. It has to be built. “What I nearly sold was not a company. It was a way of being at work. I don’t know who I would have been without it. I do not want to know,” she admits.

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